SECOND TRIMESTER IS HERE!!

SECOND TRIMESTER IS HERE!

As week 14 comes in to view, the stressful 1st Trimester is quickly vanishing from my memory.

Feelings of JOY and HAPPINESS are filling my heart.

The sounds, sights, and smells of Christmas are here. There is a cheer and calm in the air.

Tonight Matt and I pick out our Christmas Tree. It's cold, wet streets and perfect.

I hung up a few lights in the living room.

There is a real joy from knowing Santa Clause will be back next year.

Matt and I have missed his spirit and cheer for over a decade.

The excitement and genuine love for Christmas can return for another decade or two.

From the entire experience of the 1st Trimester, I took everything and turned it around.

Reconnecting with my authentic self, and connecting with Peanut.

I've joined a Prenatal Yoga class every Tuesday night. It's perfect.

I have energy now and a sense of calm that gets better every day.

I even lost about 5 pounds. Nurse says that's great. I'm already a little overweight.

So it looks like I'm just taking better care of myself.

My goal: ONLY GAIN THE 11-20LBS I'm allowed to gain.

Yesterday morning in bed and last night sitting quietly something happened!!!

I felt Peanut flutter!!!

It felt like a slight movement in my lower stomach.

Like I was digesting something but way too low. It happened a few times.

Matt was filled with joy and excitement.

Everyday this miracle is becoming more real and true.

My stomach is growing into a bump.

My hand is beginning to instinctually hold my lower stomach.

Getting up from sitting down is changing.

Lying on my stomach does not feel okay any longer.

Sitting forward too long is uncomfortable.

I am falling in love!!!

It's so wonderful.

I am exciting to see what the next 6 months brings us.

I can't believe 3 months os already over.

I am still working at Starbucks, less hours now and more time at home.

I wonder how long I will feel comfortable there. I hope up till 8 months.

I need to focus on getting the house ready, start the application and test to return to CSUN.

I have to remember my responsibilities to myself, as a wife, a daughter and friend.

Most importantly my responsibility in being a 1st time Mom.

I can't wait to take our life and share it with another human I love so much that isn't Matt.

What a change, a welcomed change.

Something we have talked about for over 10 years together and finally it's here.

Pictures are coming.

Matt and I will be going out more and enjoying life.

LOVE YOU ALL!

1st Trimester is FINALLY over!!!

     The past couple months I've been ignoring this blog. It was not only one reason but many things that either got in the way or distracted me. This is my overview from the past months that I am so happy are over. The first trimester was bumpy but not intolerable.

1st Trimester

• Nausea after 4pm
• Strong smells such as meats and smokes turn my stomach.
• Sleep was my best friend.
• Naps on my lunch break became my only help.
• Appetite was zero to slight.
• Bickering with Matt became slightly more common
• Started to feel like there was a foreign object inside me.
• Pants for work needed to change.
• Skinny jeans became uncomfortable and dangerous.
• Legging and dresses were my only savior.
• Wanted to talk to my Mom more and more.
• Researching started to slow.
• Cleaning the house slowed to a halt.
• Caffeine withdrawls took a couple weeks.
• Thanksgiving came and went.
• Thoughts of Christmas feel daunting and too close.
• A strange linger of sadness and tiredness.
• Wrapping our heads around the mortality of everything.
• Driving a car seems like autopilot.
• Pinch around the sides of my stomach when I get up quickly.
• Spinal cord starting to hurt.

NOW WAIT TO READ MY 2ND TRIMESTER, TO SEE HOW AWESOME I FEEL NOW.

Thanksgiving 2011

Inspiration for Nursery Theme.

Peanut at about 12 weeks

CAFFEINE?

Fighting Nasuea.

So. Today as I left work, I had my first fear of possibly throwing up in the car. I thought I might of been overly hungry, but that was not the case after a small tortilla with cheese. Then a couple hours go by and I was still debating what I woud do for dinner. But nothing seemed appetizing. Nothing at all.
Then it was later and I was getting more hungry, and my small appetite only agreed with nippon ramen.
So. I took a deep breathe, didnt think about my nausea. Sang in the car with wind blowing on my face. Im a pro at motion sickness and know the tricks.
Feeling better now. Sneezing has stopped finally, but now my nose is stuffy. This baby is doing strange things to my body. Well, I sit here now enjoying Adams Family and full on nippan ramen.
I am not give up on out smarting morning sickness.

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T.i.r.e.d. with a bit of Energy.

The past few days I have been tired. But it has been a strange tired that coffee cannot be th e cure for. Naps and sleeping in on sundays seems to be my only aid to the cloudy tired mushy brain feeling. Plus, my heart seems to flutter like it has in the past after my four yummy coffees. Not too much today.

Today my alarm went off at 5:45am for work, so this too could be the culprit to my cloudy brain. But ladies at work continue to tell me it is the growing human inside me. True. They might be right.

Today I feel so much better. My eyes are brighter and my thoughts clear and ready for productivity. I started my day with a list I can lean on to remember important things to get done.

Wish me luck this week. I am committed to being a productive and healthy pregnant woman, both mentally and physically.

Vicky.

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Pregnant.

     Yesterday I found out I am finally pregnant. It went like this. This September, Matt and I went on a wonderful vacation to Kirk Creek [car camping in our usual place] and then a couple nights a new place where we slept in an awesome  sibley tent. Now I am making Matt build one with me. Anyways, back to baby making. We went up there to begin a family, both mentally and physically. Woohoo!
  
 Well, we kept on it for a few weeks and I really didn't think I was pregnant. But there was strange symptoms that was not my usually body yelling at me. Usually, before my period I turn a little crazy and mean, and don't see my nastiness till I hurt someone. Which I really need to take responsibility for.

     This week, I have been feeling very nice and loving. Also, a strange pinch around my ovaries that usually only happens during my ovulation, which was way too early. The last symptom that pushed me over the edge to finally buy a pregnancy test was my visit to American Red Cross. I had an appointment to donate blood. The lady took my temperature. It was 99.7, I was confused and shocked. Thought it was the free watermelon jolly rancher creating heat from friction. LOL. Really Vicky! She took it again and it only went down 1 degree.

     As I was losing blood, I used my one free hand to look up raised temperature and pregancy. And, what do you know! The only two symptons that occur before the real symptoms are ovulation sensations and a high temperature for the first 18 days of pregnancy.

     Picked up a test on my way home. Alone in my bathroom, freaking the bleep out!! Cried with a huge smile and CALLED MY MOM! Couldn't tell Matt till he got home and had to someone get him home via strange texts becuase if I talking to him I would lose it. So to waste some time. I go buy an iced DECAF american and a pound of DECAF Verona. YUCK! But it wasn't terrible. Well, he get's home and my heart is pounding. How do I tell him? This is not what I planned! Do I play it cool? Do I freak out? Well, it's now and he walks in the door and I hand him the TWO tests I took.

     Matt really didn't understand what he was looking at. And then he GOT IT! He hugged and hugged and hugged me!! I thought he was going to pass out. He needed to sit down.

So for the next hour we did our rounds of calls and Facebook posts, while Matt stared into the center of the room. He couldn't believe it, so we went to HarborFreight and HomeDepot.

Came home, made spaghetti, watched House on Haunted Hill with Vincent Price. And fell fast asleep.

It was new day.

I have to be honest.

My fears

• that he/she won't survive and I'll have to tell everyone. 
• that my symptons will get the best of me.
• will I be ready?
• will my chemicals roller coaster make Matt hate me.
• can I carry this extra weight?
• will I strengthen enough?
• will I keep my life in perspective?
• will my priorites stay the same? no.

Knowing all my fears and stating them will really help me.

But there is a real joy from the whole reality of my love for Matt and starting a family with him.
He is my best friend and my mate for life. I love him. He will be the best father.

I have to get ready for work now. But stay tuned for more. I'll have a lot to say.

Vicky.