Changing Body

.Changing.Body.

It hasn't only been my stomach. I have to share that my growing belly has been great. I have been welcoming every weird change and difference. Everyday it feels more firm and like a real pregnant belly. 

At least how I would imagine mine to be.

Nearly every night, Matt touches my belly and I make him touch my belly button, it is so weird and kind of gross. It's becoming flat! But Matt inspects all the changing muscles in my belly and is always ready to rub my back or feet.

He is so in love with my pregnant belly. So in love.

He loves all the changes and is honored to be watching all this take place. Matt will also do his occasional "I put a baby in you" dance. Which a few people have had the honor of seeing. Completely and honestly, he is excited and going through his own changes. 

But cannot imagine how I can do it everyday.

Entering into my later months, I carry a preconceived notion of how it "should" be. I keep reading articles and forums on how other mom-to-be are doing, and I really should stop. 

My pregnancy is, mine.

I keep up to date with what the "usual" should be at every week, and I'm on track.

The 1st trimester I actually lost 12 pounds.

Nurse said that was great, because I was going into this pregnancy slightly over weight anyhow. 

My blood pressure is better than ever.

I have, by now, gained back that weight, but it's stayed stable. Nurse says, I can only gain 1 pound from last appt. till this next one coming up on March 5th. 

I'm not too worried. 

My eating habits are healthier than ever, and less.

Of course, no added calories from alcohol anymore, so that helps. I've been enjoying fruits and red meats. Taking my prenatal vitamins and feeling awesome.

Doing my prenatal yoga once a week and walking.

I'm a sober, clean women.

My brains isn't fuzzy or clouded and I'm more alert than ever.

I even fit into my skinny jeans better than before pregnant.

Of course wearing it below my belly.

But so far, I'm all belly.

I have some days of pregnant brain.

 A few weeks ago, I took off with another ladies cart of Target. She chased me down, but then where was my cart with my purse in. Took me a while to find it. Nearly had a nervous breakdown in Target by myself. 

How embarrassing.

I had hoped she had seen my belly and understood the pregnant brain.

There's been a few funny moments of confusion.

A couple more moments of rage.

Thanks Hormones.

But I've been very serious about keeping them in check. 

Matt does NOT appreciate them.

And afterwards I feel horrible and like I can do better.

So to avoid as many hormonal moments as possible, 

I do my best to feel them bubbling up and distract myself with Happy things. 

example:old movies, coffee, fruit, music, naps, shower, drive.

Weird and unexpected event.

A couple weeks ago, my colostrum has began to already come in. [look it up]

Honestly, I was curious to see how ANY milk could come out of my nipples. I don't see any holes. 

But it looks like, all I have to do is take care of myself and my body does the rest. I don't have to do much.

My body knows exactly what to do and I trust it.

At times I feel so uneducated about being pregnant, but that's just my own fears of the unknown and change.

But, I research probably too much and I need to relax. 

Go with flow, and enjoy the journey.

Keeping myself happy, healthy, busy and educated.

The rest will happen by itself.